To dye for hair

The very first time I dyed my hair was at 13. I remember browsing through the beauty department with my mom and we both found this Chinese hair dye. It had an extensive color range and it was only around 15 pesos. I was floored so I begged my mom to buy me the hair dye. She said yes and we ended up buying two boxes: a chestnut shade and another box in golden brown. When I saw the results of dying my hair, I saw an immediate sparkle on my face, a sudden lift. I was lucky the dye looked naturally flattering on me, not fake and brassy. I started dying my hair since(I think the next dye I bought after that was in a flaxen shade...and it made me look so tisay ;D)

The last time I dyed my hair was last year. God. I remember hating that dye job so much. I initially thought the dye I bought would make my hair lighter, but it did the opposite. Good thing it faded quickly because I seriously look so morose in dark hair.

I've been dye-free for months now and seriously want to dye my hair again. Ugh. Decisions, decisions. Let's look at some choices, shall we?

I've always wanted to dye my hair ombré. It screams "I-haven't-re-dyed-my-hair-in-ten-years-and-now-roots-are-showing". So me talaga.

I've thought of going to blonde route and while I think I might get reprimanded once school goes back, I'll still have a ton of fun while I'm at it(blondes do have more fun diba lol).

Forget how I lost it when I dyed my hair darker than my natural hair color; ever since Rooney Mara sported jet-black locks, I wanna piece of it on my hair, too. Bonus: Ultra dark hair is perfect for pulling Sadako pranks on people when you put your black locks over your face.

Ever since I saw this picture in a fashion spread, I totally want to have neon green highlights. Parang lang may sipon sa hair.

Hmmmm.....ano Kaya mas bagay sa akin sa apat. Ang hirap magpakulay ng buhok.

Movie Review: The Hunger Games

Okay. It's been a looooong since I made a movie review. but anyways, I recently was able to catch one of the movies I was dying to see: THE HUNGER GAMES! :D

Okay. If you are not familiar with the books, let me tell you a summary of the plot: The story takes place during the post-apocalyptic era of America where it is now called Panem. Panem has 12 districts and every year, two tributes l from each of the districts are chosen from the reaping to fight till death in the  Hunger Games. Katniss Everdeen volunteers when her younger sister Prim was chosen as a girl Tribute. What Katniss doesn't know is as the story ensues, she will soon start a rebellion.

Okay. So I was able to catch the movie at Market! Market! Whatever you do, don't go there. EVER. Nice mall, but the theatre is just so mediocre, if not bad. I can tell they cut some parts in the movie(seriously. I know just cause) AND the showing schedule wasn't correct. Like, I bought the 3:00 PM tickets but the movie started mga 3:15 because they showed waaaay too much movie trailer(not like it's a bad thing but I'm very particular with time). One thing also is the absence of ushers inside the theatre. Liek seriously, this guy who sat two seats from me has this cellphone that kept ringing and he didn't even lower his voice when speaking in his cellphone. There's supposed to be an usher to avoid that asshole-ness of the dude. Seriously.

Anyways, back to the Movie. I had mixed feelings on the film. For something that earned so much at the box-office and something that is so hyped up, it falls a bit from my expectations. But it was a well-made movie, nonetheless.

Maybe I was kinda disappointed because I just expected it too be so much like the books. Like how Katniss got the Mockingjay pin. In the books, her friend Madge gave it to her but in the movie, there wasn't even a character of  her. And Prim's cat buttercup was black and white in the movie when in book reality, he's actually yellow(hence the name). Also, Cato is described in the books as monstrous with dark hair and bla bah blah but in the movie, he looks like a blonde male model na kontrabida(not that I'm complaining kasi it's Alexander Ludwig. Teeehee). But I do wish he dyed his hair dark brown.

Hellow, Catow na may buhok na yellow

The portrayal of the characters were a hit or miss for me. Jennifer Lawrence did great as Katniss but I wasn't fully sold on her(but what the heck. I can't do anything about it anyway). Josh Hutcherson definitely shut me up. Remember when I wanted Alexander Ludwig to play Peeta? Well, I love Josh but I doubted him as Peeta until I watched the movie. Gale Hawthorne(played by Liam Hemsworth), well, I don't LOVE him for the role but in some way, he's perfect because he has this silent rebel vibe.

What A bottle of hair dye could do

I think Woody Harrelson as Haymitch was the one that didn't fit the bill for me. I just imagined Haymitch to look more...dirty and a bit rugged and haggard. In the movie, he wasn't like that. Sure, he gets drunk but he still looks...immaculate. LOL. But Effie Trinket was the best. Elizabeth Banks had to fight for this role and I think it paid of: she executed Effie wonderfully.

"MANNERS!"

As a movie, it's actually good. Forget the complaints on them actually not following the book; they have to fit everything in 2 hours 20 minutes right? Some people I know complain that this movie is too "silent", as in there isn't that much background music. I don't know if that matters at all, but I didn't mind. Overall, entertaining movie that is kinda worth waiting for. So, have you watched The Hunger Games lately? :D

MOVIE MANIA

It's the start of summer and there's so much movies I want to watch. What should I pick? And what should I buy na lang sa mga pirated?

1. The Hunger Games

Based on the best selling Suzanne Collins novel series, this also garnered the third highest box-office opening of all time.

...And Josh Hutcherson and Alexander Ludwig are in it. Need I say more? :D

^ They have similar profiles, noh?

2. Mirror Mirror

Another movie based from a book(Hans Christian Andersen's Snow White)! Lilly Collins, Army Hammer and Julia Roberts star in this. My friend even told me even the 7 elves are ones to watch out for in this film, too! And how fitting is Lily to play Snow Whitwe diba?

In the movie poster, Lily Collins looks somewhat like Audrey Hepburn in Roman Holiday diba?

3. Dr. Seuss' The Lorax

Tee hee. Another book-based film! Danny Devito does the voice-work of the Lorax while Zac Efron plays Ted, who wants to win Audrey--portrayed by Taylor Swift--by granting what she wishes for: to see a real life tree.

Psshht. Tree lang pala hanap ni Zac Efron eh. I have a lot. ;D

4. Bully

A document film that trails the lives of victims of bullying. No big-shot cast here, just everyday teens who are suffering the acts of being bullied every day and the loved ones who are coping the loss of kids due to bullying.

I am appalled by the R-rating. So yeah, there is violence and foul language but this isn't some film where they glorify violence; this is a movie that is intended to open the eyes of the viewer, to make them realize that bullying is going on every single day to a ton of teenagers. I hope they change the R-rating soon.

Okay. So I expected Perk of Being A Wallflower to be shown March last month but no, it didn't. They said it's going to be released na on September pa. Ano ba yan. I waited so long tapos ugh.

So these are the movies I wanna catch this summer. How about you :D

Note: Nope. I am not promoting pirated stuff. Ano ba. Take a chill pill and get a sense of humor, would ya?

WEIRD VIDEO I'VE FOUND LATELY: Weird Funny Singing Russian Guy!

WARNING: I DON'T KNOW WHAT CERTAIN EMOTION WILL COME OUT OF YOU WHEN WATCHING THIS VIDEO. BUT YOU BETTER WATCH AND LISTEN SO YOU COULD FIND OUT. JUT WATCH THIS VIDEO AT LEAST ONCE IN YOUR LIFE SO YOU COULD WARN OTHERS ABOUT IT

Basta ako, eto reaction ko

THIS GUY MIGHT RAPE ME OR SOMETHIN'
HE'S PROBABLY HIGH
HE MIGHT BE A RUSSIAN SECRET AGENT OMG.

Pageant Phobia(A Really Long and Boring Entry that is long overdue)

Don't let that picture below fool ya; I'm really not into pageants. Against it even.
I do like watching pageants like Ms. Universe but me joining one? PREPOSTEROUS!

Satin is a very unforgiving fabric. Made me look like I gained lbs :P

But I did end up joining one last Feb 14. A two month preparation was made and it took a toll on me emotionally and physically. Here's the story:

Okay. So late November, my adviser asked me to join our school's annual pageant which usually takes place during Foundation Week. Me, being fond of saying no, said no. But she tells me that I was perfect and that I could win it, especially with the Q&A. I began thinking twice, but still said no. When she started bringing up facts that it was not only her who wanted me in the pageant but other members of the faculty as well, that's when I started considering it.

BIG MISTAKE. For one, I am quite insecure of myself and two, sure I am good at answering stuff but will I do so in front of the whole school? And also, there was this issue about the way I walk. People laugh at the way I walk. It's like I'm chasing the last bus at the bus stop or am chasing chickens.

And that infamous way of walking became even more known during the launching of the pageant early December; someone actually said I looked like I was about to trip. My adviser says I walked too fast again. Oh God. ]

So, she was adamant to make me strut well on the pageant so she taught me how to walk...in heels. I mean, I already know how to walk in heels--actually, even run in them!--but to actually walk in a pace that people could easily catch up is something I have yet to cover. I remember bringing my highest heels to school and my adviser teaching me how to walk and turn like a beauty queen in the long hallway. No joke. After class, I practiced walking on that frickin hallway outaide my classroom. Eventually, my walk has improved a great deal.

Part of the whole pageant process was this canvassing thing and it will happen thrice before the pageant starts. It's where I ask money from people or when people drop money on my canister when it's really just a popularity contest. Lucky me, I was quite a hit with the grade school kids since they love dropping their moolah on me. Fellow high schoolers should be ashamed of themselves. Hahaha.

But it wasn't all roses for me during that experience; someone actually stole some money during my second canister. Never mind if it was 70 pesos; I still felt devastated and cried. During my third and last canister, someone stole the whole canister. That is when I began to lose it. Imagine a whole canister of money lost. I will never forget how awful it felt for me. I know I wasn't the only one, but still it was dreadful. I nearly dropped out of the pageant because of that but it seemed to be too late now.

Also, one of the things I did to prepare for the pageant was--gasp!--diet and exercise. I would wake up very very early in the morning just to exercise and I had to give up eating and drinking junk. I lost too much lbs to the point that it concerned my parents. My Dad keeps telling me to eat because I look so thin and my mom says my face doesn't look as fresh anymore. So I gave up exercising(but not entirely though; whilst preparing for the pageant, I also had to practice for a festival number for Foundation Week and God, it beats cardio any day!).

One of the best thing that happened in the preparation process was the motorcade. ANG BONGGA NOH. MAY MOTORCADE PA . It was stressful thinking about the car to rent and how to decorate it(my fellow contestant friends and I had to chip in on the expenses) but boy, the stress was worth it. For that whole morning of the motorcade, I felt like a movie star(or maybe a movie star impostor), waving hi to people and them waving hi back at me. The muscles on my jaw hurt from smiling and the balls of my feet burn from standing in sky high heels but hey, I'm not a movie star after all and don't make a living out of feeling that pain. Also, we passed by a lot of places, C-6 being my favorite. The air felt cool there and everything was so lush and green. Sadly, in the next few years, that place will get developed and the paradise of sorts that is C-6 will be gone and be C-5's twin.

Anyways, the worst downside for me on preparing for the pageant was how it distracted me from a ton of things. I had my semi finals a week before last week and even if I had all the time to study, I couldn't concentrate well just because of the anxiety I feel for the upcoming pageant.

Fast forward the day of the pageant,  I got to school all made up, hair and all. I made sure I looked like myself  as much as possible. My adviser insists that minimalist makeup isn't for stage so she piled on the blush and foundation and lipstick. I ended up looking like a drag queen but she says it looks good especially with the stage lights.

While my makeup was stepped up a notch, my outfits weren't compared to the other contestants. The first division of the pageant was the Festival Wear. For my festival costume, I ended up using an outfit that was totally DIY-ed and walked barefoot onstage. I felt like a smurf next to the candidates, who looked tall and regal in their costumes.

God. Dressing up was the hardest thing, I tell ya. We dressed up in a classroom with absolutely NO curtains or anything to cover the windows. So people probably had a ball seeing me and the other girls in our underwear whilst putting on our outfits.

Next was the Casual Wear division wherein "Casual" is a simplified way of saying "Wearing-a-dress-you-wouldn't-dare-use-to-the-mall-Period". I wore this really cute dress that I feel any girl could wear while the other ladies wore cocktail dresses and guys wore their best polos and slacks. Gee. I probably didn't get the memo, then. Or maybe vice versa.

The Formal Wear was the last and most crucial part of the pageant. After all, not all people look good in a gown or tux. You could either look like you're wearing a six footer's skirt as dress or you're playing dress up with a French waiter's uniform.But thank God, all the contestants look pretty decent dressed up. I feel myself giggling over some of the guy contestants then lolwhuttt But that wasn't the case with me; I felt horrible. Unglamorous even. All the girls were dripping in jewels, wearing gowns that were obviously made for them while I recycled a gown I think I look hideous in(see pic above).

As much as I complain about not wanting to be part of the pageant, I still felt a jolt of disappointment when I learned I wasn't part of the Q&A round. I realized that you have to be dipped in jewels and makeup(as if the makeup part wasn't enough on me) to get the judges' attention. Also, I actually thought I would be able to shine in a big way through the Q&A even if I wasn't glamorous-looking as the other girls.

Imagine my surprise that most of the girls had a hard time answering the questions. It was painful to watch. One girl--who was so beautiful in her gown and even won an award for "Best in Formal Wear"--didn't even utter a thing. One girl did a boo boo in her answer by saying "I would like to congratulate myself...". Only one girl answered decently(and in English :P), heck, great even(but surprisingly, she didn't win). The rest? Meh.

Still, people noticed my disappointment. They were like, "Are you okay?" "You seem sad..." "There's always next year". I wanted to cry. I actually cried at home. I was that disappointed. I felt forced into this and I sacrificed a lot. I also kinda humiliated myself. For what? A shallow contest that promates beauty and brains when in reality you've got to show the judges you have beauty so you could show off your smarts. I don't think I want to join that kinda thing. I made it clear growing up that I would never join such a thing.

So will I say yes if I was asked to join another pageant? NO. HELL TO THA NAAAAA. No. No. No. No. No. Actually, I was asked to join the same pageant next year by some teachers and I'm like, "No. You can't make me. I don't want to." I would never join again. Never ever. I sound such a sore loser but please understand that I already was a loser to actually say yes in joining a pageant when I know it's something that's against what I believe in. So STFU. I won't join a pageant again and that's final.

I am not saying don't join a pageant or you'll die. In fact, I think it's great that others feel happy in doing that kinda thing. But it's not for me. I'm no beauty queen and I'm proud of that. :)

Blushing

I never knew the powers of blush until a few months ago. I've always thought that blushes are a contradiction of what it claims to do: make you look rosy, glowing and..erm...blushing. I never used blush ons before because I though when one does, it's pretty obvious you've touched the stuff. Not good.

Sure, her makeup looks good here and the color of her blush is gorge, but you can tell she IS wearing blush.

I've liked cheekstains, too but the one time I went to the cinemas and darted to the ladies' room to go number 1 was enough for me to stop using them; my pores looked large and I looked old. My mirror at home must be playing games with me by showing how pretty I thought I looked but instead, every mirror I saw my reflection on showed otherwise.

So the only way I tried making my face look brighter was use lipstick and it works, yeah. But a revelation last year made me realize that I was wrong about blush.

I bought this blush a few months ago. I had a blush from that brand and I just wanted to buy another shade. I was planning to buy a bronze shade, actually, but I settled for this peachy beige blush. I remember the first time I used it, it changed my life forever. Never have I thought that a blush would make me look rosy, glowing and blushing. AND IT LOOKED NATURAL.

The blush that changed everything

So yeah. I started using this blush a lot to the point that I start using it often if not always in school. Do I have that fear that teachers will reprimand me? No. No one ever did. Instead, all I get is how I suddenly looked even prettier but they just can't quite put their finger on it.

I've always liked the fact that putting on lipstick makes you look done and ready, but putting a little blush makes you look like you're putting your best face forward. It's silly that I'm writting an entry dedicated to the life changing effects a little pot of blush has given me but then, who would want a story about little girly miracles? ;)

Broken Vow

I remember my first taste of heartbreak back in 2007. I remember how much I liked this boy who was more annoyed than flattered with my attention down to the point that he avoids me a lot and even pretended to be gay(allegedly). I cried a few times because of that and from then on, I vowed never to cry because of a boy.

Through the years, I’ve had ups and downs with my love life though nothing worth crying about. Maybe there were a lot, but I never had any tears running down my face because remembering that vow is some reflex when a boy problem comes along.

But it was different a few days ago. I’ve like this guy for quite some time now. Such a long time. So much personal sacrifices. If he ever knew how I felt…I’m not sure. I tried to keep it a secret from him, though. But I was hopeful that he might feel the same way for me that I do for him. There were clues, but I realized how stupid they were when I knew that he probably likes another girl. I was crushed by my crush. I was adamant not to cry over shit.

…or so I thought. I got home, listened to my iPod and started bawling. I never felt more sorry and mad at myself ever. I liked him so, so much. I never expected him to like me back, but it did feel good thinking I had a very good chance of being his girlfriend. I thought I had things down already; all he had to do was be friends with me then bam!

But fate has a funny(if not sad) way of showing that I should'nt expect too much. He was just a crush after all and it isn't me to actually think of possibilities of what we could be. But I have never liked anyone as much as I liked him. Ever. For me to cry over him makes me feel like a weakling but I guess he was the second guy in my entire life that I've liked so much so long. Maybe one day I'll run into another person who'll make me feel that way for him or maybe even stronger, but he won't hurt me or make my cry.

The fact that tears went down out of hurt is enough for me to stop liking this boy, but how come I still think of him?

IT AIN'T THE END OF THE WORLD!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I know, I know. Lipas na ang dalawang linggo since New Year entered, but better late than never, diba?

So anyways, with 2012 now here, people are worried that it's the end of the world and shit. I mean, yeah, with the conditions of the world and all, the worst could possibly happen.

But I would die(literally and figuratively--but more on the former) if this world ends. I HAVE YET TO EXPLORE MY LIFE. I WANT TO EXPERIENCE IT ALL. I NEED TO FINISH THINGS OFF MY BUCKET LIST. HECK, I HAVEN'T EVEN MADE A BUCKET LIST YET!

I want to be alive so I could graduate school and wear that weird hat and poncho on graduation day. I want to be alive so I could have my dream career which I am not decided on yet because I am as fickle as pickle. I want to be alive so I could prove all the people who hated on me now in high school feel sorry for their own asses when I'm filthy rich. I want to be alive so I could have my dream shoe closet filled with...uhm...shoes. I want to be alive so I could witness my absolute-boy-hater sister marries her future life partner who I am adamant will be a boy. I want to be alive when absolute-girl-hater(?) brother will marry his future life partner who I am adamant will be Dakota Fanning. I want to be alive so I could see what my future kids look like AND their kids. Hehehehe. A lot I want to experience, actually. And there'll be more as time goes by.

But Scientist say(and we should believe what they say because they are technically third in command after God/Allah/Buddha/Flying Spaghetti Monster and whoever makes the law in the country you live in) that the world will end BILLIONS OF YEARS FROM NOW. By then, I'll be dust.

But that doesn't mean you have to live life as slow paced as possible. Just because what the nerds say is arguably correct doesn't mean you have no excuse to get out there with your life now. Whether the end tomorrow or a kajillion centuries from now, your time in the planet is something that isn't accounted at all, not even by Scientists and God could just pull out your existence here in any moment. So live your life to the fullest each and every day. Try to give in to that last slice of cake. You'll never know if it will really be your last.

So tell those Incas to kiss their asses and Jay Sean to shut the fuck up about 2012 being the end of the world because ironically, according to Jay Sean, "IT AIN'T THE END OF THE WORLD" :D