All's (un)fair in Love

Have you had your heart broken?

Well, I did. A couple of times, actually. My very first heartbreak was at 12 years old. I had this massive crush on one guy who also goes to the same Kumon center as I did. Let's just call him "Gay Dude". Whenver he's around, I get unbelievably noisy as fuck. My sibling suspect that I like him and I always argue to them that I don't even like the dude and he's gay hence my little nickname for him.

I suspect that he also suspected that I liked him because it became obvious that he avoided me at all costs. Whenver I did notice that he avoided me, I would cry about it at home. But still, I liked him until that one unfortunate day happened: As my siblings and I finished Kumon, the three of us were about to go down the escalator when I saw my crush in the opposite escalator. He was about to go up with his guy friend, whom I noticed the Gay Dude was questionably close to. It's like the two were holding hands or something. I told me siblings, "Ha! Told you he was gay!" when deep inside, I was crushed as hell. Once I got home, I cried. Looking back, Gay Dude was the only guy I ever cried about and it was so lame I've cried a few times because of him. Of course, I got over the fella. A few years has passed since I've experienced that heartbreak I realizes that the Gay Dude was actually straight and possibly did that little show he did with his friend in front of me just so I'll unlike the Gay Dude. If I knew this years ago, I would've been devastated than I already was but now, I just laughed at the whole thing. I mean, it's his loss because that 12 year old girl grew up already and she just got better with age mentally(and physically. lol).

I've experienced another heartbreak months ago. I liked this dude and I met him at a school party. I remember when I was introduced to the fella, we hit it off immediately but the catch was he was the cousin of my friend and she was the one who introduced him to me. I didn't want to make a move on him because he's related to my friend and I don't like to ruin a good friendship over a boy. But the dude liked me and made it a point to say cheesy lines and such to me(who was kilig naman over them *cringe*). I made it clear to him before that I cannot have a boyfriend and I don't really trust guys a lot but what he didn't know was I trusted him even if we knew each other for a limited amount of time. He was cousins with my friend and they're close so he must be good.

I realized that the boy wasn't all I thought he was. I realized that a day or two before we met, he just broke things off with his girlfriend. I mean, I remember after a week of knowing him, he indirectly told me he was in love with me. I mean, what IS that? Am I a rebound or something to him? Ugh. And not only that, when I told him a dark secret of mine, he actually stopped talking to me. WHAT IS DAT???!!! Does he expect me to be perfect? Not only that; I learned he was messing aroud with some other girls, too. I know we're not a couple but come on, man. Why did you have to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world? (lol)

It broke my heart that this boy was a jerk because admittedly, in a perfect world he could've been my boyfriend. IIt was a good thing I never really responded to what he really wanted because things could've been more complicated. I remember my sister telling me I shouldn't even think about this dude because all he notices in me are probably my looks and once he sees another pretty girl, he'll stop talking to me. I should've known he fools around with girls because he even admitted on his Facebook that he was a 3 timer. WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK IS DAT? IS HE STOOOOOOPID? I CAN'T BELIEVE I LIKED SOMEONE STUPID!

My bestfriend did a little something so I won't have to experience liking the wrong dude again. She listed down ALL the things I want in a guy in a piece of paper so the next time I like a dude, she'll bring out that sheet of a paper cotaining all the qualities I want in a dude and if the dude I currently like doesn't fit the criteria, she'll tell me he has to go or else. I appreciated her in doing this for me because I tend to get blindsided when I like someone.

Now, I'm smarter and more cautious when it comes to love. I look back at the times I liked all these dochebags and think about how pathetic I was. If you ask me if I regret liking those guys who broke my heart....well, yeah but in some way they helped me realize what I really want in someone. Someone who isn't like them. And you know, I'm okay with having nobody liking me. Who needs a boyfriend when you've got your girlfriends? They're the ones who always have my back. :D

THE CO-ED CODE: Dealing with Boys in a Co-Ed School

Okay, so if you know me, I grew up studying in an all-girls school. I never thought I'd ever get out of that school.

Of course, I left that school quite some time ago. When time came that my Dad wanted me back in a regular school, I kept begging him to take me back to my old school but instead, he let me go to this certain school that had something my old school didn't: BOYS.

I was always afraid of studying in co-ed schools. Maybe it's because it didn't have the security and comfort I felt as when I studied in an all-girls. And also, boys are smelly and annoying. LOL

Not only that: I hear the girls in co-ed are different, too. Probably because they've been used to having guys around while I act so awkward around a guy let alone a hoard of them. But to be honest, I worried about the guys more than the girls.

When I started going to this co-ed school, I never thought hell was real. During lunch and recess, yes, it could get crazy in my old school but in my new school, it's chaotic madness. Guys in my school aren't the most mannered either: they bump into you without saying sorry. They don't move when you say excuse me. They never let ladies go first in lines(heck, no one even lines up in our school! WTF). I loathed it. I really did.

Speaking of unmannered guys, a lot of guys in my classroom are hella rude. There's this one guy who always says "HOY!" to me and speaks to me as if he isn't talking to a lady. I cried because of that guy once because it is hopeless to remain nice to him when he acts like crap. He even has the nerve to kick me in the shins if I don't follow. I MEAN, WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK, RIGHT? GAAAAAAAAAH. And the boys from the higher batches? They surely love to cat call girls. There's this group of guys who think they're so superior and stuff, they have the right to be rude ass to everyone. Hindiba't nakakainis yun?

And do you remember what I told you earlier about boys being smelly? Yeahp, true story. I remember that every time I entered my old classroom it always smelled good since the people in it smelled good and had good hygiene. In this class I have now, majority of it are boys and most don't probably know what deodorant it. They smell so awful. I douse myself in perfume before I leave for school now because once, I ended up going home smelling like the boys. Ewwwww.

But as time went by, you get to realize that not ALL the boys in school are like that. It's funny, but I actually came across some pretty mannered guys. There's this one time I couldn't push the door of my class open and one guy from a different batch said, "Miss, ako na po." I could tell you all the instances of all the polite and sweet things some boys do there but it will just make this entry too long. Also, some guys I know have perfect hygiene and smell divine even at the end of the day. I sometimes think the perfume they use are more expensive than mine. LOLWHUUUT? XDD

I never realized that some of the people I'd be good friends with in my school will be guys. I have more gal pals than guys growing up so I'm really used to talking about stuff with girls more. But it's a different story now ever since I went to a co-ed school. Like yesterday, I screamed and gushed over a cute guy in front of some of my guy friends in my class. I mean, I know I'd never do that EVER to a guy friend. Hahahaha.

Also, I talk to guys easily now. No more awkwardness. No more shyness. No more "oh-I'm-a-typical-Catholic-schoolgirl-who-studied-in-a-strict-all-girls-school-most-of-her-educational-life-and-acts-like-shit-in-front-of-the-opposite-sex" type of attitude. Nothing.

So yeah. Interacting with guys on a daily basis because you study in a co-ed school has kinda helped me. Of course, I still love my old school(Proud Kulasa forevah)and miss being around the all-girl crowd but I'm glad I improved a lot because I went beyond my comfort zone. I went to this co-ed school and ended up learning a thing or two that helped me. I know that in every place fate will take a person, that person learns something new there and comes out a better being. I'd say that it's kinda like that for me. :)

If You're Looking For a Boyfraaaan.....

Then you're in luck, George Clooney is single. :D



Justin is not pleased.



Naging kayo kasi ni Selena, eh.

And no, Big Time Gay, I don't like any one of you to be my boyfriend.



Wag kang pa-cute sa akin, Kendall/James/Logan Lerman/Sean Kingston/Whoever this dude is. You gay.



But I could care less about Clooney. I mean, he's as old as my mum. Isn't that...well...WEIRD?!?!?! So yeah, I'll settle for this dude instead.



or maybe this guy who looks a lot like Nate Archibald



or my favorite guy, Alexander Ludwig



The choices are endless. GAAAAH!!!! Sorry ka na lang, Clooney :))

And the Award Goes To.......

NATALIE PORTMAN!

Swerte kasi ang buntis eh.

But I recently won an award from Rae and I'm not even 6 months pregnant(though my tummy looks as if it is. lol).

I am very grateful to accept this, Rae. Really, thanks. :D

And sorry to my readers because I haven't really written entries in a long time. School has been cruel to me but I'll really try to write as much as I can! :D

Glad/Mad

To my followers, if you see some weird untitled thing in your news feed that came from me, I didn't write it. Fuck hackerssss. Puta bumbong sila :P

Yesterday, I spoke to my bestfriend on the phone. We normally speak for hours about so many stuff(although oftentimes, we don't talk at all on the phone! HAHAHA) and one thing we discussed was stuff that make us feel good and stuff that makes us feel bad. It gave me an idea to write about making a list of the stuff that make us feel good and ones that make us feel bad. The bff agreed that it is so she wrote a list, too(but she wrote it before I made mine. hehe).

Okay, so here goes!

Happiness Triggers:

1. When my writer's block goes away. I hate it when I have it. When I have it, I try so hard to be inspired then give up because it never helps to force myself. Then if that one marvelous idea comes to my mind, I feel really happy.
2.Putting on make up. The last time I made myself up, I did my makeup well and was bummed that I didn't even have plans to go out. Kainis. But I love that the whole day, I felt hot. Hahaha
3.Eating ice cream. I love ice cream. I would choose it over eating chocolate because I tend to eat only a bar of chocolate at a time and stash it on the fridge when I feel "satisfied" already. But not ice cream. If I see a whole tub, uubosin ko talaga. No joke! XDD
4.Getting kilig over my crushes. I don't show my feelings to everyone but deep inside, my ovaries pop. The only person I could gush about my cruhes too is my BFF(she actually hates my current celeb crush now! Hahahaha! OMG)
5.Yung feeling na gutom ako tas pagbukas ko ng ref o yung cupboard namin, maraming pagkain! XDD
6.Commuting. Call me weird, but I grew up having a car to bring or fetch me so I remember when I first commuted, I was clueless. Now, I know so much. I've been commuting for quite some time now and I like walking and looking at my surroundings. Actually, my fave commute ever was commtuing from Taguig to Intramuros and from there we went to Chinatown and after that, to MOA. OMG HABA NG LAKBAY XDD
7.Wearing high heels. I don't wear it to be taller; I wear it to feel like a lady. I mean, a lot of us teeter in high heels but when you learn how to walk in heels and hide your discomfort, your coolness meter will rise up. Look at how Victoria Beckham and J.Lo walk in 5 inch heels without showing obvious discomfort!
8.Acting on stage. I like that a lot. No words to describe it but I am adamant to act again.
9.Knowing you have a friend that will last you a lifetime. Yes, sure ako that my bff will be the ninang of my kids someday(No pressure, Beam XDD).
10. SUMO SQUATS! :D

STUFF THAT MAKES ME GO ARGHHHHHHHHHH GALIT AKUUU

1.People who don't say thanks and sorry. I mean, come on! SAY IT WHEN YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO
2.Gown shopping. I dread shopping for dresses but gowns? HORRIFYING!
3.A boy I used to like. :|:|:|:|
4.When my friends feel mad because if they're mad, I'm mad too.
5.When people lie and you perfectly know that they are. Ugh. Hate them
6.Fake friends. Okay, so I studied in this all-girls school before and I was popular then. When I left that place, a lot of my friends didn't even bother to contact or communicate with me. So most of the buds I was close with before simply treat me like a stranger now. HATE THEM MORE
7.Guys who check you out in a manner that feels uncomfortable. As in they check your humps and lumps. It's even worse if they're girlfriend or wife is around. WALANG HIYA!
8.Not doing pilates exercises well.
9.Bitchy people. If you are bitchy to me, expect me to be bitchy to you.
10.Hamsters. I find the hamsters in my house cute/ugly/annoying/smelly/weird/malikot. What I hate more than them is their owner :X

So yeah, here are my lists. Try doing this list: it will make you realize the stuff that make really really make you happy and the stuff that...well, make you want to punch the wall. Toodaloo :)

What Are You Afraid Of?

Me? It's Snoop Dogg



LOL. True fax

Well, maybe not a PHOBIA but it just kinda freaks me out that he just pops in somewhere unexpectedly.

Like when I fist listened to California Girls by Katy Perry, I was shocked when Snoop was rapping in the song. LOL



5 years ago, there was "Buttons" by the Pussycat Dolls. And who would've known? SNOOP DOGG IS THERE




Now, It's the Boyfriend song by the Big Time Gay.



It only gets weirder



He actually guested in the Christmas episode of Big Time Rush last year. :P

Seriously, I won't be surprised if he collaborates with Rebecca Black. I mean, he collaborated with almost every singer in the industry, right? (LOL. Did I just indirectly say that Rebecca Black's a singer? Hehe)

I know I'm supposed to get used to him appearing out of nowhere in someone's music video or song or whatever since he does that so often, but what can I do? I still get shocked. Hahaha

YOU READER: WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?

RIP....uh....Nameless Hamster

Sorry if I haven't written a post in a loooong time.

So just hours ago, my sister's hamster died. She has four and since one died, there's only three left now. Hahaha. Feeling math problem.

Okay, this is what happened.

We were still awake at 2 in the morning. I was just surfing the net in my iTouch until I heard my sister shouting and crying that her hamster is dead. Since I'm only a meter beside her, I asked how did she know and she says that her hamster isn't moving or breathing.

He looks like he was asleep but you know, knowing my sister's hamsters, they easily wake up if you touch them. This time, this hamster didn't wake up. He was dead. His body is gray and cold and his stench is reeking. My sister couldn't even dare look at his face(his death face: eyes partially closed and mouth hanging open. That image will never escape my mind until now).

I feel bad for my sister. She loves her hamsters, Even if I don't, I still do only because I have to. It's a good thing my sister never suspected I killed her hamster(unlike my bestfriend whose new nickname for me is probably "Murderer"). I think he died in his sleep since he was in his usual sleeping position(my sister's hamsters sleep on their backs LOL).

It's sad. I see my sister and she keeps telling herself that she feeds that hamster regularly naman and takes care of him well. She's probably trying to assure herself that she didn't do anything wrong. She told me she knew her hamster was becoming weak these days so every time she feeds her hamster and makes dede(as in makes them drink water and not what you're probably thinking. You're so green, grabe), she usually does it to him first.

And guess what?? I tried showing her other hamsters the body of their beloved cagemate and they acted like they don't care. Hmmm.....potential suspects for his death? or are they just plain clueless like most hamsters? We may never know.(I'm rooting for the latter but I still think it's insensitive of them not to show any remorse. I mean, I've been mean to her hamsters but at least I paid my respects when he died, right?)

We've always joked to my sister about her not giving her pets names because we told her that when they die, they will have a nameless grave just because they didn't have a name to begin with. So now, one of her hamsters died and he has no name(heck, I'm not sure if he's even a he!). So....RIP, NAMELESS HAMSTER.

Random: My sister also shouted over another thing yesterday. It's not because of her hamster but it was because she saw a big ass spider. When she showed me the spider, I expected it to be ssomething smaller but nooooo--IT WAS HUGE. IT WAS AS BIG AS MY HANDS. I'm finding pictures of it on Google and it looks exactly like this



And guess what? It's called a Giant House Spider and some house spiders are dangerous. Probably another potential murderer of my sister's hamster?

Also, my bestfriend wrote about the hamster's death, too. It's hilarious. Check it out

Nyan Cat :P

Brother: "Psst. Listen To this."

Me:"What's that?"

Brother: "You might want to blog about it."

Boy, Is he right. :)) I initially said I won't but I listened and watched anyway to this vid.



Has anyone been familiar with the NYAN CAT? Yeah. Vid's terrible. XDD I don't know who would even thought of doing shit like this, but this viral video sure had a ton(read: 14 mil plus)of views. It's crazy. But in some odd way, I wondered where was this video all my life. XDD

Apparently, there's a version of this video that is15 minutes long. If that ain't enough, there's the three hours 33 minutes long one. If you are mentally ill enough to think that it ain't ridiculously long enough, try the 10 hours 6 minutes version.

I think I just died.

This little kitty/poptart also has a game. WOW. KUMAKARIR TALAGA YANG NYAN CAT! You can play it here



Me: "What is that? Is he, like, farting a rainbow?"

Brother: ".....no..."