Sorry for the lack of updates. School is obviously making me more busy than summer ever did to me. But forgive me if my first post in weeks will sound like a whiny one.
Okay, so I hate it. I hate my classmates and I question the ones I consider my friends there. Academically, I'm doing okay but I could do better. 18/35 in a quiz is technically a fail for me. I remember during my first day of school, I had so much homework to do that I had to sleep at 1 AM that night. Also, there goes being the smartest in class last year: I'm classmates with other honor roll students so the competition is tough if I want to be ahead of them this year.
I still get bullied and I hate it that people don't take me seriously in class. It's like, when I try to talk to them decently, they say silly and annoying things or maybe they just nod like they get it when I can tell every word I tell them just escapes their ears. Ugh.
I also hate it that I am not technically batch mates let alone classmates with my friends. I can tell they feel a bit bummed about my move to another batch. I try to hang out with them as much as I can, but I somehow feel the distance already.
But what I hate the most is that I am classmates with the one guy I am trying to forget.
I had a huge crush on this guy for so long so imagine how heartbreaking it was when I had to stop liking him since I hate that he never knew how I felt and he also liked another girl. I think I've spoken about him here a few times. I tried to get over him over the summer and I succeeded....or so I thought when I first saw him in school this school year.
At first, I was a bit nervous that he would be my classmate and he actually was. Then I thought, for old time's sake, I will try to get to know this guy since I've always wanted to know what was beneath those good looks and quite demeanor. Not that I like him; I've heard too much negatives about him and I just want to know if what they say is true. He seemed like a nice guy to be friends with compared to the rowdy bullies in my class.
And he actually is. We don't talk as much as he talks to his friends more, but every exchange I had with him was relevant. I swoon over his manners. I secretly feel kilig when his name gets called in class. I look at him a lot and just like observing him(creepy, I know). I like that I managed to make him laugh or smile a few times since he looks so serious all the time. I love it when he says "Hi Gillian". My neck hairs stand when I see him look at me out of the blue.
It seems like bullies and nerds are not just the problems I expected to deal with before I entered school. It looks like my heart will be a part of them........and I don't want it to again.
Friday, July 6, 2012
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Triple Movie Review! :D
I watched quite some movies over this summer and I feel like reviewing some of them. :D
1. The Runaways
I have always wanted to watch this movie since I've always like The Runaways' song "Cherry Bomb". Kristen Stewart plays Joan Jett while Dakota Fanning plays Cherie Curie in the film. If you ask me what rating I'd give this film, I'll definitely say a 9/10. This movie met my expectations of being far from cutesy and girly by being dark and angsty.
My favorite scene? Definitely when Joan reinvents a plain white shirt by spray painting "Sex Pistols", distressing and adding safety pins to it! I love Joan's wardrobe in the film in general.
2. Prom
Unlike The Runaways, this is a film anyone could watch. Prom is a movie featuring stories of teens having dilemmas before their big night. Will they ever have the night of their dreams? If you have some time to catch a teen movie with an easy and predictable plot, then Prom will be your best match.
I may not be entirely sold on this movie, but I do find Nolan Sotillo's charatcer cute(and Nolan himself. lol)
3. Burlesque
This movie has received mixed reviews when it came out, but I happen to like this film! It's entertaining with the amazing musical numbers and costumes. The plot is not too bad and Christina Aguillera definitely got the pipes that rival anyone.
Ooooh, and Cam Gigandet stars in this, too! Total eye candy! Haha!
1. The Runaways
I have always wanted to watch this movie since I've always like The Runaways' song "Cherry Bomb". Kristen Stewart plays Joan Jett while Dakota Fanning plays Cherie Curie in the film. If you ask me what rating I'd give this film, I'll definitely say a 9/10. This movie met my expectations of being far from cutesy and girly by being dark and angsty.
My favorite scene? Definitely when Joan reinvents a plain white shirt by spray painting "Sex Pistols", distressing and adding safety pins to it! I love Joan's wardrobe in the film in general.
2. Prom
Unlike The Runaways, this is a film anyone could watch. Prom is a movie featuring stories of teens having dilemmas before their big night. Will they ever have the night of their dreams? If you have some time to catch a teen movie with an easy and predictable plot, then Prom will be your best match.
I may not be entirely sold on this movie, but I do find Nolan Sotillo's charatcer cute(and Nolan himself. lol)
3. Burlesque
This movie has received mixed reviews when it came out, but I happen to like this film! It's entertaining with the amazing musical numbers and costumes. The plot is not too bad and Christina Aguillera definitely got the pipes that rival anyone.
Ooooh, and Cam Gigandet stars in this, too! Total eye candy! Haha!
Will You Kiss Me, Will?
I know this happened last month pa, but I can't help but state my opinion on this.
Last month, Will Smith attended the premiere to his latest movie, "Men in Black 3" in Russia. He stopped to do an interview for a reporter when suddenly, that reporter kisses him making Will slap him on the face and walk away angry.
Of course, most people were on Will's side. I mean, if a dude suddenly kisses you, who wouldn't freak, right?
But Will is in frickin Russia. It's customary to greet someone with a kiss there, even if it's a guy to a guy. I think Will was wrong. He's in another country and should've practiced their etiquette before going there.
You can choose not to greet a person with a kiss, though, but at least say so politely instead of doing something rude and calling that person crazy(Will did this). It's a blow to anyone's ego, really.
The journalist apologized but I don't hear reports of Will ever saying sorry for slapping that poor guy. Am I the only one in the world who thinks Will should've said sorry to this Russian dude? Seriously?
Last month, Will Smith attended the premiere to his latest movie, "Men in Black 3" in Russia. He stopped to do an interview for a reporter when suddenly, that reporter kisses him making Will slap him on the face and walk away angry.
Of course, most people were on Will's side. I mean, if a dude suddenly kisses you, who wouldn't freak, right?
But Will is in frickin Russia. It's customary to greet someone with a kiss there, even if it's a guy to a guy. I think Will was wrong. He's in another country and should've practiced their etiquette before going there.
You can choose not to greet a person with a kiss, though, but at least say so politely instead of doing something rude and calling that person crazy(Will did this). It's a blow to anyone's ego, really.
The journalist apologized but I don't hear reports of Will ever saying sorry for slapping that poor guy. Am I the only one in the world who thinks Will should've said sorry to this Russian dude? Seriously?
Friday, June 8, 2012
Too Cool For School(mates)
School time is finally here! A groan/sigh of relief for me, really.
I love school. I may have a love/hate relationship with studying but I value school too much. But one thing is clear on what I hate about school: the people.
Yes. I hate them all. (Well, not really since I have a handful of friends naman)
Okay. I know I'm being too harsh but I always have a reason. A lot of people seem to hate me in school. I get made fun of, called names at, get harassed and the like there.(no physical abuse, though. Not that I recall of...yet).
I can't help but feel a bit nervous when I go back to school. I dealt with these people for one whole year and while I survived, I will always remember how I suffered emotional breakdowns at home since I couldn't take it anymore. The thought of wanting to be back in my old school was stamped in my head daily. Seriously, that's how bad things got in my current school.
A guidance counselor advised me that I shouldn't let these people get into my head. There will always be those people who'll bring you down when they know you are getting way ahead. I don't know why people like to spend their time bringing people down; they could just concentrate on being the best themselves, you know.
Also, he said I shouldn't move out of my current school because of these people. I achieved so much already. No matter how much I never thought of it, I still stayed strong and concentrated on my priorities than mind the treatment people gave me in school.
My friends also tell me that I should just think about who these people who tease me are. Most--if not all--are basically students with failing grades. Students who are malandi. Students who like to cut classes. Students who don't really have huge goals. Basically, students who will never, ever get out of this town.
So...in some sort of way, even if these people messed around with me, I still have the last laugh on them. They can say anything they want, but what do they have to bring to the table against ME? Doing drugs? Have 50 boyfriends? Repeated a grade level? Shame. Such a shame.
To all my haters in school, I salute you with my middle finger whilst greeting "Fuck You" to all of you.
As I type this sentence, the nervousness I felt about going back to school is suddenly turned into confidence and vengeance. Hahaha ;D
I love school. I may have a love/hate relationship with studying but I value school too much. But one thing is clear on what I hate about school: the people.
Yes. I hate them all. (Well, not really since I have a handful of friends naman)
Okay. I know I'm being too harsh but I always have a reason. A lot of people seem to hate me in school. I get made fun of, called names at, get harassed and the like there.(no physical abuse, though. Not that I recall of...yet).
I can't help but feel a bit nervous when I go back to school. I dealt with these people for one whole year and while I survived, I will always remember how I suffered emotional breakdowns at home since I couldn't take it anymore. The thought of wanting to be back in my old school was stamped in my head daily. Seriously, that's how bad things got in my current school.
A guidance counselor advised me that I shouldn't let these people get into my head. There will always be those people who'll bring you down when they know you are getting way ahead. I don't know why people like to spend their time bringing people down; they could just concentrate on being the best themselves, you know.
Also, he said I shouldn't move out of my current school because of these people. I achieved so much already. No matter how much I never thought of it, I still stayed strong and concentrated on my priorities than mind the treatment people gave me in school.
My friends also tell me that I should just think about who these people who tease me are. Most--if not all--are basically students with failing grades. Students who are malandi. Students who like to cut classes. Students who don't really have huge goals. Basically, students who will never, ever get out of this town.
So...in some sort of way, even if these people messed around with me, I still have the last laugh on them. They can say anything they want, but what do they have to bring to the table against ME? Doing drugs? Have 50 boyfriends? Repeated a grade level? Shame. Such a shame.
To all my haters in school, I salute you with my middle finger whilst greeting "Fuck You" to all of you.
As I type this sentence, the nervousness I felt about going back to school is suddenly turned into confidence and vengeance. Hahaha ;D
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Letter To My Future Children
Dear Children,
I am not sure about what to say to you kids. I am only a teenager from the past writing to her future children. Anyways, I kinda feel the need to mention that my internet is shitty(if this word still considered a profanity in the future, please don't use the word or I'll make you kids wash your mouth with soap). I hope that if ever you kids find this in the depths of this long forgotten blog, this was a product of boredom. I seriously don't know what to say to you, kids. What can I say to show how much I am proud of you? How much I want the best for you? How much I love you?
Still, even if my mind is a blur, I feel like I know exactly what I want to say to you.
To my sons, if you boys ever get into sports, that would be great. May I remind you that I will be that typical soccer mom, the one who cheers for you in the bleachers AND the one who gets worried as hell(sorry) when you guys get injured. If you ever choose video game over any outdoor activity, I will ground you. So if video games might be cooler than the ones we have in this era, I won't have bug-eyed, obese game addicts for sons.
Also, please learn that regardless of how fast times will be by then, it's still in fashion to respect girls. If you guys ever introduce me to your girlfriends, expect me to welcome that bitch(again, sorry)with raised eyebrows rather than open arms. Sorry. I want a girl who's perfect for you and if I see that(translation: ME) in her, then I would want some grand-kids, please. LOLJK(Laugh Out Loud Joke. Gosh. That sounded awkward). But please, be around twenty or thirty something with a stable career, your own house and car(maybe a flying one?)when you introduce me to your gal.
To my daughters, I hope you love fashion as much as I do. But most importantly, I hope you get to appreciate style more. After all, according to Yves Saint Laurent(Google--or whatever search engine is the rage then--him) "Fashion fades, but style is eternal". And you girls are beautiful. Don't be insecure like me. The time you spend on obsessing a flaw could've been used in trying to be perfect you you could ever be. I hope you don't wear too much makeup, too. I want naturally beautiful inside and out daughters, not cake monsters
When it comes to boys, I just hope you won't commit the same mistakes I did: fall for the wrong guy; wait for nothing to happen; act like they're you're number 1 priority, etc. But I'm not too bad: I am almost 18 and I've never had a boyfriend and as much as possible, you girls should be the same, too. I know by then, you could be two and pregnant. More 12 year old girls are getting pregnant these days, I bet fetuses will be pregnant in your time. BUT PLEASE. DON'T DO ANYTHING STUPID 'KAY. SAME GOES FOR YOUR BROTHERS. MAYBE BOYS COULD GET IMPREGNATED BY A GIRL IN THE FUTURE. OH DEAR.
To you kids combined, I hope you learn how to respect me. I don't want you kids to be mad at me and treat me harshly. Maybe I'll be strict to you kids, but it's only because I want you kids to have the kind of guidance I wish I had and the complete kind of love I wish I could feel from my parents. I will be the best mother I can be. I will work hard to grant you kids a life I've never lived growing up and I will be there also when you need me. When you need a hug. When you need advise. When you feel the need to eat some home-cook meals, I will try to be there. Always.
Also, don't laugh or make weird faces if I play my music. I've done this to my parents when they played their groove on and thinking about it now, I would feel immensely terrible if you laugh at the music I love.
Make goals, too. I want you kids to aspire higher. please bear in mind I didn't grow up rich and only had goals to keep me going. I wish you guys--though I know I have worked enough to keep you guys from the poverty I've experienced--will have goals to keep you going, too.
Don't argue with each other, too. Establish good relationships with each other regardless of your differences. One day, your father and I will be gone and you'll have no one else to depend but each other. My Dad told my siblings and me that all the time and it's very true.
My final advise for you kids is to be happy. I want you kids to feel genuinely happy with your lives and not experience the depression I did when I was your age. It's good to be sad, but depression is another thing. Don't get sucked into it. Life is beautiful and there are a ton of things to be happy about. Flying cars! Come on!
Okay. Just kidding. But still, be happy. And follow everything I say. I don't want you kids to feel the hurt and heartache of the life I Lived when I was your age. I don't want you kids to be the worst kind my parents had to encounter when they raised me. No mother wants to see their kids fail in life. I mean, I know I'm writing this as some sort of joke, but I really mean it when I say I don't want you kids to be screw ups!
One last thing,: bet you kids are good-looking. Boys, girls and robots are probably mad about you. Thank your momma for your good genes...but mostly your Dad. ;)
With love,
Gillian Mercado Cortez-(insert last name of your father)
I am not sure about what to say to you kids. I am only a teenager from the past writing to her future children. Anyways, I kinda feel the need to mention that my internet is shitty(if this word still considered a profanity in the future, please don't use the word or I'll make you kids wash your mouth with soap). I hope that if ever you kids find this in the depths of this long forgotten blog, this was a product of boredom. I seriously don't know what to say to you, kids. What can I say to show how much I am proud of you? How much I want the best for you? How much I love you?
Still, even if my mind is a blur, I feel like I know exactly what I want to say to you.
To my sons, if you boys ever get into sports, that would be great. May I remind you that I will be that typical soccer mom, the one who cheers for you in the bleachers AND the one who gets worried as hell(sorry) when you guys get injured. If you ever choose video game over any outdoor activity, I will ground you. So if video games might be cooler than the ones we have in this era, I won't have bug-eyed, obese game addicts for sons.
Also, please learn that regardless of how fast times will be by then, it's still in fashion to respect girls. If you guys ever introduce me to your girlfriends, expect me to welcome that bitch(again, sorry)with raised eyebrows rather than open arms. Sorry. I want a girl who's perfect for you and if I see that(translation: ME) in her, then I would want some grand-kids, please. LOLJK(Laugh Out Loud Joke. Gosh. That sounded awkward). But please, be around twenty or thirty something with a stable career, your own house and car(maybe a flying one?)when you introduce me to your gal.
To my daughters, I hope you love fashion as much as I do. But most importantly, I hope you get to appreciate style more. After all, according to Yves Saint Laurent(Google--or whatever search engine is the rage then--him) "Fashion fades, but style is eternal". And you girls are beautiful. Don't be insecure like me. The time you spend on obsessing a flaw could've been used in trying to be perfect you you could ever be. I hope you don't wear too much makeup, too. I want naturally beautiful inside and out daughters, not cake monsters
When it comes to boys, I just hope you won't commit the same mistakes I did: fall for the wrong guy; wait for nothing to happen; act like they're you're number 1 priority, etc. But I'm not too bad: I am almost 18 and I've never had a boyfriend and as much as possible, you girls should be the same, too. I know by then, you could be two and pregnant. More 12 year old girls are getting pregnant these days, I bet fetuses will be pregnant in your time. BUT PLEASE. DON'T DO ANYTHING STUPID 'KAY. SAME GOES FOR YOUR BROTHERS. MAYBE BOYS COULD GET IMPREGNATED BY A GIRL IN THE FUTURE. OH DEAR.
To you kids combined, I hope you learn how to respect me. I don't want you kids to be mad at me and treat me harshly. Maybe I'll be strict to you kids, but it's only because I want you kids to have the kind of guidance I wish I had and the complete kind of love I wish I could feel from my parents. I will be the best mother I can be. I will work hard to grant you kids a life I've never lived growing up and I will be there also when you need me. When you need a hug. When you need advise. When you feel the need to eat some home-cook meals, I will try to be there. Always.
Also, don't laugh or make weird faces if I play my music. I've done this to my parents when they played their groove on and thinking about it now, I would feel immensely terrible if you laugh at the music I love.
Make goals, too. I want you kids to aspire higher. please bear in mind I didn't grow up rich and only had goals to keep me going. I wish you guys--though I know I have worked enough to keep you guys from the poverty I've experienced--will have goals to keep you going, too.
Don't argue with each other, too. Establish good relationships with each other regardless of your differences. One day, your father and I will be gone and you'll have no one else to depend but each other. My Dad told my siblings and me that all the time and it's very true.
My final advise for you kids is to be happy. I want you kids to feel genuinely happy with your lives and not experience the depression I did when I was your age. It's good to be sad, but depression is another thing. Don't get sucked into it. Life is beautiful and there are a ton of things to be happy about. Flying cars! Come on!
Okay. Just kidding. But still, be happy. And follow everything I say. I don't want you kids to feel the hurt and heartache of the life I Lived when I was your age. I don't want you kids to be the worst kind my parents had to encounter when they raised me. No mother wants to see their kids fail in life. I mean, I know I'm writing this as some sort of joke, but I really mean it when I say I don't want you kids to be screw ups!
One last thing,: bet you kids are good-looking. Boys, girls and robots are probably mad about you. Thank your momma for your good genes...but mostly your Dad. ;)
With love,
Gillian Mercado Cortez-(insert last name of your father)
Saturday, May 26, 2012
I Think I'm Gonna Dye
The hair color debate isn't done yet! More hair color porn for your pleasure is coming right up!
Ugh. I wish I could dye my hair at the moment(but with a Dad and school like mine, better stay in the traditional territory).
Katy Perry was on Ellen recently and I fell in love with her hair color. It's plummy purple that looks so different than other purple hair I've ever seen. It is <3
The ombre is haunting me again! Gah! I lavett
This one falls on the ombre side, but it's really subtle nga lang. Perfect for me since I cannot afford to be get scolded because of obvious roots
Peach colored hair! That isn't something you hear every day. Lauren Conrad makes it so chic!
How about something natural, but better. This color is a teensy bit darker than my natural hair color(if not exactly the same) but somehow, it doesn't look mousy as my normal hair color does. This is perfect for school.
But alas, I can't dye thy locks. My hair has been feeling dry lately. I better invest in some deep conditioner than a hair dye! :D
Ugh. I wish I could dye my hair at the moment(but with a Dad and school like mine, better stay in the traditional territory).
Katy Perry was on Ellen recently and I fell in love with her hair color. It's plummy purple that looks so different than other purple hair I've ever seen. It is <3
The ombre is haunting me again! Gah! I lavett
This one falls on the ombre side, but it's really subtle nga lang. Perfect for me since I cannot afford to be get scolded because of obvious roots
Peach colored hair! That isn't something you hear every day. Lauren Conrad makes it so chic!
How about something natural, but better. This color is a teensy bit darker than my natural hair color(if not exactly the same) but somehow, it doesn't look mousy as my normal hair color does. This is perfect for school.
But alas, I can't dye thy locks. My hair has been feeling dry lately. I better invest in some deep conditioner than a hair dye! :D
Sunday, May 20, 2012
100th post
March of the year 2010, I took a plunge and made a blog here on Blogspot. It was a decision made out of haste: How the hell will I keep up with a blog? Will I be committed to it? I already blogged a bit on my Multiply and that wasn't even something I wanted to do regularly.
But I just went in and made a blog. I wrote my first entry. I went on and wrote another entry over a week later. I knew that having a blog wasn't really my forte so I never really wrote too much last year. Heck, I even copied and pasted some of the stuff I wrote from my Multiply blog!
It was only early this year that I realized that this blog was my only creative outlet at that time so I made the most of it......and enjoyed tons. Now, look: 100 posts later!
I know, I know. It's 2012; only 100 posts? For me, considering all the crazy, busy shit I've been going through, that's an accomplishment.
I'd like to thank my loyal followers and all the people who've dropped by my blog. It means a lot.
Now, on to the next hundred! :D
Summer Soundtrack :D
It's May! It may be June next month but that doesn't mean summer is over, right?
I didn't do much this summer(if not, didn't do anything at all), but I did write a lot, updated my blogs and of course, sound trip!
Here's a list of some of my fave songs to hear this summer :D
This really is the best song ever! :D (But worse music video ever. lol)
This is the type of song I'd sing out loud to annoy my siblings(as if they weren't already when I did.hehe).
Actually, I love hearing this song all year round. ;D
This song is very summery(in my opinion). If you're into European artists, then this song is for you.
Karmin does a lot of covers on Youtube, although I do love their original songs more. "Hello" is a recent fave of mine(after "Crash Your Party" and "Brokenhearted"). Plus, Amy's rapping skills will kill you. :D
Okay so these are some songs I'm enjoying this summer. I'm telling you, I really loving so much songs now, both new and old.
What are your favorite songs to hear this summer? :D
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