Like every other girl, I have insecurities. I have insecurities about my body and face. I hate my nose. I hate that I'm not as slender as I'd like to be. I hate that my arms are flabby(actually, my arms are thin but if you have a sister who has athletic shoulders even though she doesn't play sports anymore will definitely make you insecure. haha). I hate that my eyes are not as close-set as my Mom's(God, her eyes are gorgeous!). I'm kinda insecure about my intellect, too because I always wonder whenever I talk to a person if they ever find me dumb.
But these things could always change. If I exercise and stay on a healthy diet, I could be a bit thinner(and it's a good thing it's in my genes, too). Arm exercises could do wonders to a flabby arm. Makeup contouring will do the trick for a bulby nose and surgery if I want something more drastic(hey, I'm not against it! haha!). Dark eyeshadow on the inner corners of my eyes will miraculously make them as if my eyes are not as far-set in the first place. And smarts....well...I nosebleed people too much. XD
But I have this insecurity that I never mentioned above and it's one that could never change: MY HEIGHT. Gaaaah
I don't love my height. I'm between 5'2 and 5'3. Sure, most Filipinos are actually below that height but I am still generally short. I know heels could help, but then even lots of taller ladies wear heels thus making me wave a white flag in the "Who's Taller?" competitions I always run into whenever I'm out of the house(In short: I could never compete with a stranger who's really taller than me even if I wear heels).
If being short is stressing enough, not wearing all the fashions out there is a bummer, too. I can't even wear my own jeans without folding the hem just so I won't have to drag excess fabric every time I walk.
Also, I dragged about my height because most jobs and careers today--ugh. May height requirement. I CALL THAT DISCRIMINATION! XDD. LOL. But it makes sense why some jobs like being a stewardess requires you to be taller than 5'3. But good thing that since the kinda of career path I want doesn't really require a certain height to apply.
I've always wondered if I stopped growing. Some people say I already did(I'm 16). Others say I will continue till I'm 18 and others also say that I will stop growing two years after my first period(so I stopped growing at 13?? o_O). But the best explanation of all is it really depends on the person if he/she will stop growing or not because every person has different genes and nutrition and rest intake.
But if ever there's a chance for me to get taller, that would be great.I've drank vitamins and milk every day to no drastic avail. But a part of me will always be okay with being in my height. Why you ask? Simple: THE HOLLYWOOD STARS! HAHAHA! It's kinda shallow but it did give me comfort that there are these amazing Hollywood celebs who are just around my height like Sarah Jessica Parker(5'3), Rachel Bilson (5'2) and Eva Longoria (5'1). It's a long list actually but seriously, I never thought SJP was petite! Must depend on a person's body proportions because I remember a friend of mine being so shocked that I was really short because she always thought I was tall(lagi naman naka-heels eh)and she says parang I look tall daw. haha.
I'm kinda happy also about my height in a way because I'm taller than the world's most famous oompa loompa: SNOOKI. >:D
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